Sometimes I feel like I'm counting my life down one day at a time: The waiting is driving me crazy, and I'm trying to keep myself active. We are planning a vacation to help, but in reality its just another thing to add to the timeline. Yes my mind is not always focused on IVF, but its always there in the back of my mind. Today, one of my students called to drop out of school because she just found out that she was pg. It drives me insane that everyone else can get pg at the drop of a hat and I am sticking myself, stressing myself out and worrying about everything that will help with implantation and what will hurt. What can I do in the next few weeks to help my chances even a little.
How do you turn off your mind and stop thinking about creating the family that you have wanted your whole life? How do you continue to be happy for everyone around you who get pg so easy? How do you look yourself in the mirror, knowing that there is a very good chance that you will never be a mom? I wish I knew.
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Hi,
Just wanted to say hi and wish you luck in your upcoming cycle. You and DH sound like little lovebirds!And a vacation is a great idea.
As far as looking yourself in the mirror, I would hope that you would channel all that love for your future family into loving yourself. You are a gutsy, strong woman who is going all out to make her dreams come true. You are a warrior of love. You can be sad and disappointed without losing love for yourself. Keep journaling and keep dreaming that you'll be a mother soon in whatever way you are graced. Good night dearie!
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